True Love lives On, Even When We're Gone

It has been almost a year since I last blogged and even visited my own blog. I guess the obvious answer is because I never felt like blogging or I never felt as lonely as I am now for the past one year. I have got rid of many unwanted people from my life and also lost a few people that I have never wanted to lose. When I look back now I think I was really lost and I was not really sure of what I needed and wanted. I am a person with lots of regrets and mistakes now. One good thing about it is,from a person who has been selfish I know I have changed into someone who is more considerate especially towards the people who have been there unconditionally.

I really do wish love could last forever and words that comes out from the woman/man you love will never change. She came into my life and went just like that, I changed every single part of me without me realizing when she was mine. I have to agree that I have done mistakes, lots of em but I am just a ordinary guy who does mistakes without realizing. Never thought this random girl who went to the same Uni where I am studying and I got to know in FB could turn into a person who seem to mean the world to me now when she is gone. I know I can never rewind the time and turn things to be better between us which has turned from bad to worse even though I know I am a better person now and I can be the person that she has always been wishing for.

I get so pissed and hurt when I think how could a person who said ''I am Happy with the way you are/you are all I needed'' to you could just forget about you and leave.I am not saying I was the best boyfriend because I know have done and said stupid things but I did put her first and tried to be the best. I might have hurt you a lot but I regret every single mistakes that I have done. No matter how hard I try,It is hard for me to forget every single thing we shared,every places that we went and those hugs and kisses. I know I had the best in my arms, you and now I have lost it. Honestly,you might not have looked the prettiest when I first met you but now you seem to be hundred times way more prettier than madona or anyone out there, not because of your looks but because of your heart and the way you used to love me and I realized how beautiful and unconditional things were. I don't know if you have moved on but I really hope you will always be happy and things will be better where ever you are or go.

Love,

Neeth